Mind you - he was ahead of the rest of the runners here!
My husband asked me this morning why I wanted to "stick with this kid". Well, (apart from my odd ability to only keep in mind the good things about him) this is the answer:
He is talented. He has potential. Not just as an athlete - though surely there. He is smart, too, and perceptive (about everyone except himself). He has a sense of humor. He can be thoughtful. However difficult it may be, God placed him in our home.
And: I don't want my other children to think that the people God puts in your life can be abandoned or discarded when they become difficult.
Sometimes I pray that the "right" family will show up for him. Especially now when there is the "summer program" coming up. I think my husband might agree to hosting a little girl, if we didn't have Maxim. But we do have Maxim.
This photo was taken yesterday at the track meet. I was not planning on going to the meet. 1) Anastasia had volleyball, 2) Sergei had Athletic Awards, 3) the meet was in a far-flung town and I am trying to save on gas. 4) Zhen was at a friend's house so I was already having to drive out of my way in another direction to pick him up, and at about the same time.
But, Maxim called me from the meet and begged me to come. Begged. I was giving him all the reasons, as above, when he started pleading, "I want you to come. I want to show you how fast I can run. I'm going to run my best today. Please! I'm standing out here almost crying! Come, Mrs. Kitching. Come!" All right. All right. I'll come. Calm down. And it is not like I haven't seen him run! I've been a quite a few of the meets.
Then I had to pay $5 to get into the meet (and sit freezing on metal bleachers, in a cold, damp wind) to watch him run his last race.
But, for some reason it was important to him. This is all one big mystery. I just continue doing the best I can.